Am I really?

Am I really engaged to the man of my dreams?
Am I really cleaning and organizing my apartment to get ready for moving in together?
Am I really going wedding dress shopping this week?
Am I really slowly seeing all of the things that I have prayed for coming to fruition in a more beautiful masterpiece than I ever could have planned myself?

I'm overwhelmed.
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude for everyone who has stood by me, prayed with and for me, gotten angry with me, made me laugh, saw the best in me, brought to light the things that could be better, and helped walk with me to the place that I am today: blessed and in complete shock.
I can't even stand in the presence of a great God who sees me as more and better and higher and greater than I can understand.

It's exciting seeing something happen that you seriously doubted ever would.
That spark, those butterflies in my stomach, that electric surge coursing through my veins is enough to light the city on fire.
There are no limits to what He can do.
I knew this, but it is just confirmed all the more.

He has taken ashes and made them beautiful.
He has lit up the darkness with blinding and marvelous light.
He has given shelter to the homeless.
He has given stability to the faltering.
He has given a Father to the Father-less.
He has covered the orphan and widow with his wing and lifted them to royalty.
He has restored what the enemy took.
He has taken what the enemy meant for bad and certainly turned it for good.

Psalm 30:11
You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness

We sing this song often in church and it brings me to weeping mess of joy every time.
The lyrics are simple, yet profoundly speak to my heart.
You can listen to the song here. The lyrics are below.

You bring restoration
You bring restoration
You bring restoration
to my soul

You've taken my pain
called me by a new name
You've taken my shame
and in it's place, You give me joy!

You take my mourning and turn it into dancing
You take my weeping and turn it into laughing
You take my mourning and turn it into dancing
You take my sadness and turn it into joy

hallelujah, hallelujah
You make all things new, all things new!