Pressing on

It's crazy to me how there are so many things in my life right now on the same page. This page of change. This page of morphing into something better, something greater. I know what needs to be done. I am equipped. In most instances, it is deciding what must go and what must stay. Old memories, old pictures, old reminders of a time no longer existent. In other instances, it is intentionally pushing through the change with an eager and joyful spirit. Changes in diet, mindset on a specific topic or pruning my relationships of bad fruit. Only a few of the changes are at a stand still. I just need to find the dedication and focus to get it done. I know I can do it. I know that God will give me the grace for the steps I need to take.

There is a fine line between being the Proverbial Wife and compulsively obsessing over perfection. That line goes right to the heart of the issue. You won't be able to tell by looking at my home or my child or my bank account. You can only see and understand a small extent of my heart by getting to know me. Even then God is the only one who can fully see and attest to the desires of my heart. I desire to rise before the sun and provide food for my household.(Proverbs 31:15) That is a good desire if it is based in striving for obedience and glorifying God. If that desire is based in wanting to be called blessed by my daughter or future children/husband, it is wrong. If it is not based in a love for God and who he would have me be, then my motives are wrong. Becoming the perfect Proverbial woman will not make God love me more. It will not make my daughter or future children/husband love me more. Sure, they will appreciate the things that I do just as anyone would. But for King and Country says it best, "So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love".

So for now, I will "press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:14

It's about the journey, not the destination.
Maybe Relient K says it best?

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
There's only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with you.

[Chorus:]
Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.

You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all.